A Flower full of Life, Hope, and a lil' Candy

I’m tryen >__^ Lol

I know I have it better then most, before anyone gets to bitchen I take care of my responsibilities and there is no reason for my mom not to trust me under any circumstance besides the fact I’m a teenager and that’s even getting old. I don’t bitch about stupid things that I’m in the wrong for.  but I’m so fucking tired of the “Same shit, New day” Crap that’s going on. I’m trying to move on with my life and make a name for myself and the respect and love I have for my mom is making that impossible, every time I turn around shes bitching about something. I don’t even know what the fuck I did in the first place! I’m going to be 18 in 13 days and this bitch is trippin’. I still have to ask to go to the store right up the fucking street, and shes at work! What kinda shit is that? Im tired of it and I think im goin to move out. Once I get my stuff together im gonna leave. My mom acts like if I had freedom Im gonna go have sex and and do drugs. Im above all that. And she also acts like im going to be gone forever. Shiiit when I do have “Free time” im sleeping or playing a video game. WTF! I cant sit here and cry my eyes out anymore because ive wasted so much time on that. I love and respect my mom to much to just say “FUCK OFF” and im afraid of losing her just simply by asking her to let me go. Im graduated. I mine as well be 18 with the responcibilities I do have. Im tired of this I need change. I cant just stay cooped up in my house. Shes gonna either hear me or make a big mistake.

kingnycjohnson:

You are right . Guys ain’t shit . But the fact that you keep falling for assholes and that YOU know are assholes in the beginning and that fact that you keep going back to them means that YOU ain’t shit

I love that feeling I get when I hear a guy sing for the first time. Whether it be under his breathe or in a full out audience, my stomach just drops and I want to jump on him! To make that feeling even better is if hes humble about it. He doesn’t go around yelling in everyone’s face he can sing. Its when “that” song comes on and he starts under his breathe mumbling a few lyrics and its just loud enough you can hear it, that my heart starts pounding and every where else starts throbbing.

Sing in my ear just enough that I can feel your lips just barley caress my ear, with your warm breathe against my neck, while your hands are gently gliding up my waist, with your body so close to mine I can feel the warmth of your chest and the sound of your heartbeat speeding up and things can get dangerous, ;). I guess you could say that this is one of my few turn ons. 3;D.

So I’m about to go on a date with the sweetest guy ever! I don’t wanna call it a date because I don’t think its going anywhere. Ive been so alone, that if it was tah be anything I would push him away. I know I will, even though I acknowledge it, that’s the sad part about it.

Well to all my Tumblr Puppies that may read this Good Luck in the future with your relationships! May they be as perfect in life as they are in your head! =D

I take that back! I dont care, its always the same thing. Its just really convenient that 3 things just blew me off like that today 2 unitentional but hey thats life I guess. I guess thats what I get for doing that to other people….. =’(.

Treat others how you wanna be treated.

Im chill I guess.

I need a smile or something…… =/

And I have no idea why? 0_o

Plans for this week

1. Hang out with almost everyone from my past, They decided tah text/call me all of a sudden 0_o
2. Fuck up my sleep schedule
3. Eat……everything!
4. Piss my Mom, sister, brothers off in that order
5. Draw “Thnak You” Letters for those who sent or gave me cards after Graduation!
6. Watch paint dry
7. Think about my senior year
8. Stop calling my self a senior, because im a graduate! >__0
9. Go on this not date thingy with this guy my friend got me talkin to
10. Blast music in my house and clean stuff.
11. Stare at stuff……..

This is my week and i plan to honor it. Lol